Reverse Paranoia

Weed + previous paranoia = bad idea?

I’m a very paranoid person, was diagnosed a couple of years ago with paranoid personality disorder and possibly schizophrenia, I now no longer get therapy for it
Im 16, and quite a few of my friends occasionaly do weed just to relax when with friends, as do most teens I guess. I’ve been offered a joint quite a few times but have declined it as I’m not sure what to do cause of my paranoia.
I’m not beeing pressured at all to do it, this is something I want to do myself, but if I get stoned, being prone to paranoia will the chances of me getting like that greatly increase, or even worse worsen it for life?
Thanks so much if you can help
xxx

It’s likely a bad idea. The first few times I was VERY paranoid. Of being caught. Of my parents finding out. You get especially paranoid of what time it is, because the speed of time sort of gets messed up in your mind. Of EVERYTHING.
I also had panic attacks the first 2 or 3 times I tried it. It was my first experience with a panic attack.. I’ll assume you’ve had one before if you have PPD, but I actually thought I was dying. The sensation I described it as is that would heard is beating so hard, you have to concentrate on you’re senses to feel them. To see, you would have to stare at something.. Then you’d realize you were blocking out the sound and feeling and taste… so you’d focus on something you were eating and realize you couldn’t feel any of your other senses, which then makes your paranoia worse.
If you really want to try it, just make sure someone is there that can control the situation if you do get out of hand, as I know some people freak out their first time (a girl i know went crazy, was so convinced she was dying that she ran into a KFC and jumped the counter and called herself and ambulance because she was “dead”).. But yeah, make sure there is someone there, go somewhere you’re really familiar and comfortable with, and give yourself alot of time as your first high feel like it lasts forever. Also, just do a very very small amount, like a half a breath and leave it at that for about an hour. That will give you a taste of what miight happen.

I know i still get panic attacks sometimes, not often, bus usually in the middle of the night after I smoke pot. So if you are really set on trying it, it wont do any permanent damage, but you may have a bad trip and most likely a panic attack, and yes, alot of paranoia so just do a tiny amount, make sure they’res someone sober enough to supervise that knows what to do if something gets out of hand, and be in a familiar location.

If you want to know more about what to expect/what it feel like, send me a message because it would be alot better if you know what to expect,… Cuz i definetly remember my first time

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